I have found myself bogged down in the past. I hold onto things because I'm afraid that if I let go, I will no longer have anything. I'm terrified of being alone.
So I'm slowly trying to work out of my ways and branch out. Create new relations and open new paths.
I'm having lunch with someone new today. Don't really know how it's going to turn out because I fried my brain last night and and in kind of a groggy haze today. I really hope it goes well, but I'm more anxious for this than I remember being in a long time. Perhaps it's because I want to bad to impress her so much or maybe it's because the very small amount of information I've learned about her so far makes me think that we won't get along as well as I previously believed.
Regardless, this is a step towards something new I think. Hopefully, the new is what I'm looking for.
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